Today started out on the challenging tip.
I went to write The Love Post this morning, only to have the internet moving slower than molasses. This was quite frustrating, of course.
Then my stress levels went up quite a bit because a small detail revealed a big challenge that I must face.
I Love my husband ~ I Love him beyond words ~ And, as you know, I’m a woman of words. That’s how much I Love him.
I also depend on him. And today taught me that I depend on him too much sometimes.
You see, we had a birthday party to attend this afternoon in the big city of Providence. (At least it feels big to me). And I thought he would be driving, as usual.
When he woke up with a throbbing headache and really not up for going, I was hit with a wave of emotions. All at once, I felt sad, angry, disappointed, frustrated and, honestly, afraid.
As I finally let my feelings out and shed some dramatic tears, I realized that what was really not a big deal presented me with a sizable issue to address.
Was I going to let my fear of city driving keep me from re-uniting with a cherished friend?
Was I going to miss an opportunity to take my daughters on a grand adventure to the Carousel Village because it was outside my comfort zone?
And, perhaps most importantly, was I going to be mad at my amazing husband for my lack of confidence?
Thankfully, Love is my guide.
After some admittedly unimpressive moments of emotional immaturity, I came to my senses.
This was actually a wonderful opportunity to push myself to my limits.
And I did.
And it was awesome. The reunion was magical and the girls had a spectacular time at the event.
Roger Williams Park Carousel Village
I am so glad that I didn’t let my fear, sadness or anger stop me from missing a fantastic experience.
I’m so thankful that Love can laugh at my petty grievances and steer me back in the right direction.
(And speaking of directions, I did have to turn around twice on the trip. But I did it. And now I know that I can do it again.)
If a similar situation arises again, I can relax and say, “I got this. Love’s my co-pilot.”
And now this edition of The Love Post is one of the most personal I’ve written yet.
I hope that it helps you out if you run into a scene like this in your own life.
Remember that emotional turmoil will pass. It’s a necessary part of the journey to greatness. Hash it out and do your best to identify the root cause of the problem.
Often, I find that the Sun shines brightest after the rain.
I feel like a whole new woman compared to who I was this morning. And that’s the beauty of being a creation of Unending Love.
Love Teacher. Writer. Musician. Green American Mama.